Christmas today!!

Hey everyone!
first things first! Merry Christmas!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
second! haha. Nah, just thought i should blog a little before I go away. At the moment Christmas Lunch is in the oven, and we are waiting for family to come around to do the whole lunch thing. It's been a good morning, we had a cool church service and then came home to do stuff, like open presents... should i give you the list?! i think you want me to :-P
Well!!
from mum and dad i got an 20GB ipod (YaY)
ummm from auntie audrey and uncle george i got elmo pj's - they are soooo cool!
i got a bag with a photo of some of my cousins,
a necklace and earrings and a t-shirt from my granny in northern ireland
I got a dairy and metallic crayons from Caro! (thankyoU!!!!)
a pink sparkly belt, pink fairy ornament and pink starry earrings from Jem!
a toe ring and anklet form bec :D
umm a candle and holder thing from Abra - very cool
umm thats most of the stuff for now...
I'm very lucky with all i got!

Anyway, I am going to keep writing some things now i don't know what! I have been getting sms's all day it's so funny my parents keep thinking they hear the beep now! haha, i got heaps from northern ireland, but it's like 12:51am over there now, so i don't want to call! haha. Auntie Audrey and Uncle george gave our puppies chocolate, it was so funny watching them open it! we took photos, they will eventually be on the web!
Umm what else to write... oh i got a message from Jenny R, Amanda, Nicole, Alistair, Jeremy and yeah i think that's it.. i feel so loved! can you imagin if i got this kind of love everyday! haha... nono, it's all good... i feel loved. "I don't need to send you messages to tell you i love you" is what mum said haha. it was funny cause she did one day. oh well. not much more ot write so i think i'll go back to watchign colin buchannan!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

It's soo the best!! :D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D


Oh well, i'd better go!
XOX love you all lots and lots and my pj's are so cool (haha i'm wearing them now... obsessed!)

Jen!!

I guess one more thing that is so important!!!! Today is such a cool day because of a particular reason! Today is Jesus' birthday! HOW COOL IS THAT!!!!

happy birthday Jesus!!!

Christmas

Hey everyone.
I'm not really doing a lot so i thought i'd drop a line or two in my blog.
I suppose as anyone who has seen me recently will know, Audrey and George are still very much so on my mind. Things are a little strained here at home at the moment. Dad is kinda grumpy, and that always makes mum and me feel really sad. I wish Audrey and George were still here because when they were dad wasn't as grumpy. Christmas is mixed emotions this year. It's cool cause it's christmas, but sad because it doesn't feel like it, and it's this time of year that I miss mum's family the most. I also realised this morning that it will be different because I won't be opening any presents (like we always did) before church because Andrew isn't here.
I spoke to Auntie Audrey last night, it was so good to hear her voice! It's strange cause I see her more as a friend than an aunt - but maybe that's what aunts are really like i dunno. I can like talk about anything with her! (I'm sorry to everyone that this is all I talk about.) It's strange, I bottle all this stuff up to the point when I'm crying, and then as soon as I blurt it all I feel so much better.
Summer camp starts in 2 days, i'm so not ready yet. Hopefully I'll get a couple of good preparation hours today -once i've actually started beign helpful rather than wrapping presents and then talking here. Speaking of which I should actually start doing some stuff for mum. I might write some more later but we'll see what happens.

If i don't get on here until after summer camp have a great christmas everyone! Have also a good week after christmas!
And i'll be back with hopefully a good summer camp - if people could pray for my preparation and bec's too!

Jen
xox

I miss you, most at Christms time, and I can't get you, get you off my mind. Every other season comes along and i'm alright, but then I miss you most at christmas time.

They're singing deck the halls, but it's not like christmas at all, cause i remember when you were here...

a little better

I'm feeling a little bit better today. Sleep helped. I am still sad but i'm at least not crying. I got a message from Auntie Aud at 12:30 last night haha, to say some stuff which was really nice, haha my phone was on loud so it woke me up - not that I minded at all. I replied and she was like "you should be sleeping! Good night pink fairy! Xx Aud" awww. I was like awww and then went back to sleep. So that means they made it to Kuala Lumpar (sp?). they're on their way to heathrow airport, London now and then going on to Belfast.
I'm going to go over there next year, i'm just deciding the best time. There are two options. July, August time when i'm mid-year break at uni, although it depends on my practical schedule doing teaching, or going from early december through to february which would be awesome spending a long time there. The only problem with that time of year is that school is still on and most of my relatives work in a school. - i guess it runs in the family. I guess the only other thing with december is not being with my family for christmas, i don't know how they would be with that. - but it was dad's suggestion so we'll see.
Yesterday I was such a wrek. When I went to carols sarah and bec asked how saying goodbye was, and i just started crying & the same later that night when Alistair said a similar thing. I think a funny thing was that everyone was going up to mum last night asking how she was and she's like "i'm ok, but jen is so upset, she's been inconsoleable all day" haha.

well i just got mightily distracted making a new music playlist with songs that have memories of this year. I'm going to go now, and get ready for the day.

j

tears of sadness

hi everyone.
I'm writing today as tears stream down my face. My aunt and uncle left today I miss them so much. It's so hard to say good bye. I just hope and pray that they get home safely so that I can see them again. It seems so stupid, but auntie audrey left some little things behind, and in a way i don't want to give them up, mum says it's not worth sending most of them back. I can't believe they are really gone. When we were saying goodbye at the airport I was bawling. Mum and Audrey were also fighting back tears. I felt so heart broken on the way home, the thought of coming home to only my parents is so heart breaking. it hasn't been like that before.
I'm going to miss auntie audrey so so so so so much. She said as she was leaving though that it wouldn't be as long as it has been before we'll see each other again. I seriously hope that's true.

I've said so many goodbye's this year... too many goodbyes.

yeah

yeah, i haven't written in here for a while - been a little busy. Audrey and George leave tomorrow. I spent most of yesterday afternoon crying. It's gonna be really sad when they go. Mum and I are planning what we are going to do because otherwise we'll just mope around the house, I think we are going to see a movie, and then on thursday I am going to see the orthopedic surgeon and then going shopping around parramatta. Mum and I have quite a few christmas presents to get.
I guess i'm trying not to think about Audrey and George leaving because it makes me so sad. It's been so long since i've seen them and I get on so well with them. I kinda wish mum's relatives lived near us instead of dad's. I know that sounds really horrible, but i get on so much better with her side of the family. But everything is in God's plan and so i have to rely on that.

Well, I just came back from the doctors... sinusitus... (don't know how to spell). But yes. We just got presents from Audrey and george for letting them stay, haha mum audrey and I were fighting tears. I got earrings with music notes - they are cool! my first pair of earrings (not the ones i got in now, even though they wre from them too). Well, Audrey paid for that too.... haha.
I gave audrey f-lairy wings so that she could be a fairy too and george an autographed picture of me haha. How funny is that. They gave me a fairy card which is cool!!!

We're going to cry tomorrow i'm sure. But what can you do.

anyway i'm going now to go have dinner

XoX

psalm 46:10
Isaiah 43:2

grr to blogger

it didn't post the last one i wrote. :: cries::

OH well, I am extremely tired so i'm sorry if i make no sense. Andrew and Bess Yager got married yesterday. I have a sister (in-law) which is extremely cool. The wedding yesterday was so pretty, I felt like a princess with everything, the flowers, the dress, the hair (which was quite painful....28 bobby pins all in one spot on my head), the glitter, makeup, jewelery etc! It was very special. Bess looked so wonderful! She's so gorgeous.
I got to sleep last night at like 2am. Haha, auntie Audrey and uncle George and I were on the couch cause we couldn't get motivated to go to bed cause we were so tired, eventually we went, but it was funny. I was pretty emotional on Friday afternoon, after all we had been setting up the reception place since 9am. I got home after 6pm, and just wanted to cry. I think it was because Andrew getting married is a bit hard, because I was sore from standing all day and cause I don't want george and audrey to go.
It seems pretty selfish i'm sure, but I guess, when you don't see someone for 8 years, who you get along with really well and really like, it's a bit hard to see them go when you know it's going to be a long time before you see them again. BUT i am extremely thankful for the time i've been able to spend with them. It's been so wonderful!!!

::sigh:: the song that I walked into yesterday just came on, it has such a special feeling to it now. It was so makes you cry watching Andrew's face as we all walked in yesterday. As I was coming up the aisle, he mouthed, "you look so lovely" I swear i was going to cry. I've never seen him smile so much, and look so divinely happy as he did yesterday especially when his wife walked in. There is something so special about weddings.
The reception was fun, the bridal waltz was pretty humiliating, but it was good. I danced with many people, andrew, matt, sam, mike, audrey, sarah, mr murphy and in big groups. It was cool, the band was awwwwwwessooooome!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm gonna miss andrew as my big bro, always there for me. It changes a bit now, because Bess is his family now, and he is to be devoted to her, and put her needs above others. I think what i'll miss most, is our driving places together where we can just chat to each other laugh, share the things that scare us, and dance and sing and just have a good time the two of us. That's what i'll miss most of all. But having bess as a sister-in-law is wonderful, and seeing Andrew and her so in love also outweighs my sadness. It's so bizzare, i thought i'd be so wrecked yesterday, but i was just so happy then. Today i think it's all starting to hit in that Andrew is married, so i'm sorry for all you who are reading this and witnessing super over emotional Jen.

I guess it's harder than i thought. Andrew is like my best friend, and it gets a bit hard to let go. He's been there for 17 years, and has loved me despite all the things i've done to him, and hs never ceased to amaze me with his knowledge of God, and his encouraging nature. I just pray that those things will never change, and even though circumstances might be different, the things he has taught me, and the way that we have bonded as friends over the years will never change.

Oh well. I am going now, I need some sleep.

Jen

The relatives arrive!

Hey y'all ...
it's sunday arfternoon, and Audrey and George arrived from Northern Ireland today. Haha we're trying to keep them awake... they are very tired. I think mum is going to let them sleep soon, poor people haha. They are so lovely, i was a little afraid that they wouldn't like me, or it would be heaps awkward, but it's so good! They are so funny. Uncle george keeps making me laugh, and Audrey is so sweet. We went to koala park in west pennant hills today, and it was fun. Haha i even managed to get around on crutches which was good. Very fun.

Oh well, i'm gonna go and be sociable and not look so strange when everyone is sitting around talking, and i'm on my lappy.

XoX

j

winces of pain

Hey everyone, i haven't written in here ina long time, so i thought i'd fill you in. I saw the orthopedic surgeon today, i don't need an operation which is an answer to prayer. Praise God. I am very sore however - i did a little too much today, however I do not regret a single moment, being outside is a definate blessing. I had a haircut today and walked around Pennant Hills shops for a time, and also went to PC's our churches primary age youth group which was nice. We were down on girls tonight but it was still a good time.
On the down side of the day, my knee is in a lot of pain, and as i write you i am wincing with the pain. But i will be ok. Trusting in the Lord is ever important and i am resting in the knowledge that he will help me through this. Which brings me to my next point of writing.
Last night when reading my favourite book, "donovan's daughter" by Lori Wick, i was reading of my favourite fictional character Marcail Montgomery. Reading of her struggles through times of hardship in her life, and how she came to rely on God reminded me of my own lack of trust in my situations. I so often tell people that they can rely on God in times of struggle, and forget that true piece of wisdom in my own life. Many things I have been holding onto with myself and not giving over to God, and so last night I spent some time praying that he would sustain me through them, and giving the outcomes over to him. I found myself today in particular praising him when the news on my knee was good. Last night, I'm sure some of my friends can tell you, I was apprehensive about the operation that I may have had to go under, and so last night i prayed that God would take away my fears, and that if the operation was necessary that he would sustain me and keep me calm throughout. Praise God that I didn't have to take it!
I'm a lot like Marcail i think, which is why i'm so attracted to her character, there are flaws indeed, but so much of her seems like me, and i can relate to her feelings. I guess that's why the story had such an amazing impact on me.

If you got this far, i thank you for reading. To many of you it might not seem of significance, or that interesting, but to at least a few of you, you will understand how wonderful it is to give things back to God and discovering his love for you all over again.

And I guess this is me and this is what I believe:
But God demonstrates his own love for us in this: While we were still sinners, Christ died for us.
Romans 5:8

I will write you soon

Jennifer