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it didn't post the last one i wrote. :: cries::

OH well, I am extremely tired so i'm sorry if i make no sense. Andrew and Bess Yager got married yesterday. I have a sister (in-law) which is extremely cool. The wedding yesterday was so pretty, I felt like a princess with everything, the flowers, the dress, the hair (which was quite painful....28 bobby pins all in one spot on my head), the glitter, makeup, jewelery etc! It was very special. Bess looked so wonderful! She's so gorgeous.
I got to sleep last night at like 2am. Haha, auntie Audrey and uncle George and I were on the couch cause we couldn't get motivated to go to bed cause we were so tired, eventually we went, but it was funny. I was pretty emotional on Friday afternoon, after all we had been setting up the reception place since 9am. I got home after 6pm, and just wanted to cry. I think it was because Andrew getting married is a bit hard, because I was sore from standing all day and cause I don't want george and audrey to go.
It seems pretty selfish i'm sure, but I guess, when you don't see someone for 8 years, who you get along with really well and really like, it's a bit hard to see them go when you know it's going to be a long time before you see them again. BUT i am extremely thankful for the time i've been able to spend with them. It's been so wonderful!!!

::sigh:: the song that I walked into yesterday just came on, it has such a special feeling to it now. It was so makes you cry watching Andrew's face as we all walked in yesterday. As I was coming up the aisle, he mouthed, "you look so lovely" I swear i was going to cry. I've never seen him smile so much, and look so divinely happy as he did yesterday especially when his wife walked in. There is something so special about weddings.
The reception was fun, the bridal waltz was pretty humiliating, but it was good. I danced with many people, andrew, matt, sam, mike, audrey, sarah, mr murphy and in big groups. It was cool, the band was awwwwwwessooooome!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm gonna miss andrew as my big bro, always there for me. It changes a bit now, because Bess is his family now, and he is to be devoted to her, and put her needs above others. I think what i'll miss most, is our driving places together where we can just chat to each other laugh, share the things that scare us, and dance and sing and just have a good time the two of us. That's what i'll miss most of all. But having bess as a sister-in-law is wonderful, and seeing Andrew and her so in love also outweighs my sadness. It's so bizzare, i thought i'd be so wrecked yesterday, but i was just so happy then. Today i think it's all starting to hit in that Andrew is married, so i'm sorry for all you who are reading this and witnessing super over emotional Jen.

I guess it's harder than i thought. Andrew is like my best friend, and it gets a bit hard to let go. He's been there for 17 years, and has loved me despite all the things i've done to him, and hs never ceased to amaze me with his knowledge of God, and his encouraging nature. I just pray that those things will never change, and even though circumstances might be different, the things he has taught me, and the way that we have bonded as friends over the years will never change.

Oh well. I am going now, I need some sleep.

Jen