quick post

I thought I would write a quick post before I head off to my next lecture. I was greatly dissapointed that I sent two email during my break and didn't get a reply.... :: tear ::.... hahaha oh well... as i said this is a quick post because I have class in a few moments. YaY for english... maybe i won't fall asleep again.

oh well..

that's enough.

jen
haha sorry to those who are bored reading my blog... can't be bothered updating as often... stuff to do.. places to go.. people to see..

YaY for bible study tonight :-)
(and yay for almost mid semester break!!!)

19 March 2005

I thought I would do a little more writing here until I make myself work at 10:30. Stuff has been happening lately and I guess it could be divided in to 2 categories, family and me.
Dad is going into hospital on the 30th April to have an operation done. It will be a stressful time at home, I'm at uni during that time, mum is still working, and we are both teaching after school as well as trying to keep up extra-curricular activities and look after dad. I have an assessment due the week after on the Tuesday as well, so we will see how it all goes. Other things associated with that too... I'm kinda scared that everyone will be trying hard to do so much we will end up completely burnt out...

which kinda leads me to my next point... me :-)
who better to talk about in my own journal.. i can't get in trouble for saying things about myself...
I got really cranky at myself yesterday, I failed my P's test, and for reasons outside my control. That was fine with me, I wasn't necessarily expecting to get them first try, but I was cranky that I failed when I realised that there were no tests until the 19th April. But hey! at least I didn't fail for something that I didn't know!!! :-)
What else, oh I have this assignment due on Monday, it's a 3 page report type thing, *sigh*... will be ok once I get into it though..
Perhaps I ought to do that now... so I can go out tonight :-) WooT

There was more I could write but it's work time!

jenny

Schnappi die Kleine Crocodile

Alrighty.... it's time for Schnappi die Kleine Crocodile...

It's this awesomely cute song by a 4 year old girl Joy from Germany. The song is about a crocodile and it's teething efforts. Joy's aunt wrote the song and recorded the little girl singing it then posted it on a website as a family joke then a radio station discovered it and it went to number 1 in the German pop charts! It's like the best song!!!!!!! I've been listening to it and it's made me smile all day!



above is a photo of Joy, Schnappi and her aunt who wrote the song... it's sooo sooo cute!!!!!!! awwww..... i want the CD!!!!

These are the lyrics of the song in English.. awww...

I live in Egypt, right next to the Nile,
first I lived in an egg,
but then shnapped my way free

chorus
Schni-schna-schnappi schnappi-schnappi-schnapp
.....

I am Schnappi the little crocodile
have sharp teeth and mighty many of them
I shnap what's there to shnap
I shnap and am good at it

chorus

I am Schnappi the little crocodile
I love to shnap, that's my favourite play
I sneak up to mum
and show her how well I shnap

chorus

I am Schnappi the little crocodile
I'm never tired of shnapping
I shnap daddy's leg
and then just fall asleep

chorus

xox

Jen

The Storm

She gazed at the sky. The blackness seemed to stretch further than her mind would allow her to imagine. The occasional flash lit up the night sky and lingered on her mind. Lightening never ceased to amaze her, it provided her with a moment of hope in her dark world.

She let her thoughts wander. Moments incomplete.

Fragmented.

It opened up doors of pain she had tried to wash away. If only scrubbing at her pale and worn skin took away the pain she was scarred with inside. She tried to wish it away.

The sky flashed its brilliant white again as images momentarily came to her mind. Her mother. She in her mother's arms. Perhaps that was what she longed for, what she needed to fill the empty gap in her life. Human embrace. Love was not something she thought of often, afterall love and hate aren't compatible. She had believed she didn't need it to bring her through. After all, life was solitary wasn't it? We are born alone, we die alone. But why did she feel so empty now? Why did her own life feel like a storm, her heart like a black sky of nothing, with the ocassional flash of lightening to pierce into her already broken heart.

Maybe if she didn't try so hard to hide everything that was important to her she could make it. But that wasn't how she was taught to live. Life was personal, solitary, singular. Other people could not be trusted. Everyone she had once cared about had left her deserted...

cold...

and crying in her brokenness.

She didn't cry anymore, it just made her pain obvious to the poeple around her. It was much better to be a part of a masquerade. She went to the sky instead of people. It seemed to understand, and would send her a flash of lightening to give her a moment of hope.

She was frail.

Pain and hurt wasn't something that had hit her suddenly, it had taken a lifetime. Her lifetime. At first she had almost believed it was her friend, but it had lied to her just like everyone else. Blaming other people had once seemed the perfect way to alleviate pain, but now she could see it had just opened more windows and more reasons for her to hurt.

Hey, this is the first installment of a story... don't stress people, this is just something that came into my mind inspired by a story.

Hi again

Hi everyone, I thought I ought to post again today as this morning was so awfully short!

Thanks to Norton and Suresh who commented :-) was nice to hear from people. Well I got good news from the surgeon this morning, he doens't want to operate yet, (only if it dislocates again). We got to Parramatta soooo incredibly early, cause we didn't know what the traffic would be like... but I got some uni work done which was good.
Dad then took me out to breakfast which was nice.. I came home and did some bible study preparation for tomorrow and then went to uni. Had a wonderful day - even though I was up so early I wasn't feeling tired and had lots of fun!

I am heading out to youth group in about half an hour, I get the feeling I'll be wanting to enjoy a relaxful day tomorrow, perhaps get a little uni work done, talk on msn (hopefully) and stuff. I feel quiet prepared for the study tomorrow which is good, so it should run well God permitting. I'm doing it on a passage which never ceases to challenge me... so that will be good, hopefully the girls can catch some of the excitement I see in it.

I am totally enjoying uni life, I love meeting the new people - everyone is so nice! Today I sat with a group of people I didn't know in my Learning in Science and Technology tutorial, and I had such a good afternoon, we were laughing joking and everything! It was awesome! I was on a table with Felicity, Gary and this other chick who is full awesome! The other awesome thing about doing education is that I get to act like a child most of the day :-) We do lots of games and we get picture books read to us and things! (I mean we still act like adults and stuff, but we get to experience the same sorts of things we would teach). Oh! AND in our library we have this whole room devoted to picture books. You walk in and wall to wall and in the middle are literally hundreds of picture books, and posters on the walls, it's such an escape walking into that room! I love it!!!!!!! I think I'm going to have a wonderful time at uni for the next 4 years, (apart from the whole assignment thing - 11 this semester!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)

Hmm... I don't really have a lot more I can write... so I shall go get some dinner get ready for youth group and please keep commenting... it was so nice to come home to people who have read my blog!!!!!!

Love

Jenny
xoxoxoxoxox

3rd March

Hi everyone,
Just thought I'd drop a quick line while i finish my coffee and go to the shower.... 5:45am is a very trippy time to get up I have decided. It is dark, but you know it's morning... and it's bizarre cause you can't tell what the day is going to be like.... but yes.. oh well.. finished my coffee now and i have to get ready.. going to the surgeon in 38mins!
xox

write more lata.... can people comment... i'm feeling bored... looking at my blog with no one commented :'( ::cries::

byeeeeeeee

jenny